Pondered - thanks for the comment about wasting time. It's becoming a huge time sink for me.
I am not retired, not officially, but I've developed some cognitive issues which may or may not heal over time. I am currently on (private insurance) disability. At 59 you might say I'm unofficially retired.
Given the situation I often feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, although I have no idea what that other shoe might be. I love not having to beat my head against the wall every day to try to fake skills I no longer have. I love getting a reasonable amount of sleep.
I would not trade an uncertain retirement for the certain income of my old job. My natural rhythm is to start moving sometime in mid-morning; 9AM meetings are a crime against my humanity. I am re-learning how to cook, I am reading again, I have an electric piano waiting for me/giving me side-eye; I even enjoy cleaning my apartment. I love being semi-unofficially-retired, and I suspect that other-shoe-dropping feeling is one that we all share, more related to the world than to myself.
I also think the world will open up a lot after I have a knee replacement, Real Soon Now.
